black and blue heart

okay lets get this over with....i'm all beat up and trampled again....life is so not fun....i'm sick of the game...i'm sick of the trouble...i'm so not a fighter...i don't have it in me...it's another replay of the last...it happens over and over.... can't beat it....i'm done playing the game....i can't keep this up....it's destroying my heart which is the only thing that keeps me alive....it's making my heart beat painfully...i don't deserve this...i'm blatantly not going to care anymore...give m what you got...hit me with all your best shots...cause right now...i don't care....stabb me while i'm down...have fun shoving me around til i'm backed into a corner...get a kick of your ridicule....i'm much better than all this...i'm much better than alll of you...i have tons and tons of frustration that will propel me without you....i don't need your angst and toxicity...i have so much to give that everyone rejects.....the day willl come when you will want me and I so won't be there...i can't wait to kick your request to the curb....it will feel so good to smirk and disdainfully walk away from your pathetic requests...no it won't be yours it will be mine. i have words and that is something most of you don't have.